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the breeze caresses my face
sunlight pressing against my skin
awakening my blood
surging my being
bursting off my starting block
burning in my lungs
in sheer adrenalin
cracked shackles nowhere to be seen
the bliss
surging
energy
ALIVE

endorsement of bleeding thoughts;
oceanic crashing of my soul;
exceeding dimensional pressed emotion
and yet
i can do nothing
my inaudible screams
pulsating inwards
jeering my irrationality
born in a place
where time stands still
meandering memories
held within a paradox
to reassure my sanity

October 10, 2009

Attempting to decipher
Breeze fuelled tree chatter
Minds vacant leaving all clarity existence
Surrounded by the energised world
Comprehension of all that is/Is not
Eluded truths
Gazing at the apathetically coloured sky
Shunned by its darkened appearance
Craving the mental voidness
Stationed
Trapped within submerged thoughts
Driven selfish blinded desires
Ill self-preservation
Verge of in/decision
Apprehension;
Plateau of purpose
Captured ambition
Seizing control
Focal compassion
Outward aspiration;
Acknowledgement
Changes the tides
Mindful challenges;
Empowerment

April 02, 2008

Submerged

The cries of a child's loneliness
The bang of a bullet silenced argument
The tears of broken hearts
The deformation of disease
The screamed echoes trapped
 
Submerge
 
Blue reflections
Motionless
Surrounded by silence
Gentle sway of the water's rhythm
Sounds of the heart in ears
 
Soothing
Inner voice regains volume
Giving peace to the soul
Renewed
Re-energised

January 18, 2008

it was in my hand
like a stone
the red deep with rage
running quickly away
shiver
breeze
red robbed of its moisture
its speed and colour
blue took its place
speed slower
but dark as rolling clouds
of thunderstorms
shiver
stillness of my chest
my left breast
there too
once red
now blue
barely felt knuckle
graze on the gravel
but i knew
all around
shapes become colours
lips no longer part
one last thought
i smile.

gentle nudges
hypnotic lullabies
dissipated mindly woes
revised omnipresence
comforted serenity
guided by
unique character;
voidness
a mere touch
silences realms
subdued breath
energises the conciousnesses
to re-orientate;
remembering knowledge

valleys tickled
among the trees’ audible whispers
energy migration
united synergy
solstice rebirth
persuading earth’s masses
trapped ebbing
of the being
etched across
longitudes and latitudes
sustaining adaption
pursuing strength
bring starry tranquillity
forever in light

Having been introduced to this band on Buzznet earlier December last year. Immediately I was drawn in, my very first industrial genre band. Not only the addictive voice of Alaina Beaton a.k.a. Porcelain, but the powerful and thought influencing lyrics. I marvel at the meaning depth of her lyrics - so simple and to the point, yet so powerful, and clawing with zeal.

Spending time on the internet, searching for more information and looking for albums, I discovered that Alaina is as unique as her voice. Porcelain and the Tramps can be found on the likes of YouTube, videos made by dedicated fans. Dubbed as an "Internet Superstar", not only for her songs but for style too - many pictures portray her with wild hair colours, and her set style, along with a captured wildness at heart. And I believe this is suggested in her music.

For the first part of this year, news of the band's movements have been somewhat quiet, in fact, still to release an album. Much news is reliant on dedicated fans, and found news that Alaina co-wrote the lyrics to Ashley Tisdale's "How Do You Love Someone?" which was released on her album June this year. Ideally, and hopefully I will get to hear a version sung by Porcelain and the Tramps. And according to an online fan site, having been signed by Virgin, August saw the band "being back on track" to release an album. So we shall excitedly sit on our hands for confirmation.

I love ALL her songs - those I have heard - and it is difficult to say which ones are my favourite, as the songs seem to alternate. So I will go with the majority of our community:

My Leftovers
Redlight District
King of the World

Being South African myself, in my teens I grew up with the familiar sounds of Saron Gas (Seether). A somewhat laid back grunge/rock group, after changing their name to Seether at their release of their second album, Disclaimer, really put them on the musical map. A definite foot in the door, was also contributed by their astounding, yet slight change to their style, was the song "Broken" with Amy Lee of Evanescence.

In my experience, both the lyrics and the music hit an emotional cord - being able to associate past experiences close to home. The rock-like grunge sounds hit that "empty" space within one's self.Listening to "Broken" only confirmed my interest in the group and wanted to hear more.

The song "Sold Me", made me a proud South African, as the band defined their international status. This song was featured on a soundtrack of "The Punisher", identifying Seether in Australia, the UK, and USA. The new claimed fame saw Seether with another album "Karma and Effect". This album was one that I saw a shift of style, personally and at first, I wasn't too keen, but maintaining my fanatical passion, the album grew on me - how could I have doubted them?

Seether has had its ups and downs, but the past 2 years have seen them back on their feet, touring with the likes of Nickelback (Dark Horse tour), as well as, "one-off" shows for the US troops. Although 2009 had been dedicated to writing and recording a follow up to their "Finding Beauty in Negative Spaces". This album is a MUST buy.
One of Seether's new songs titled "No Shelter" (NCIS Official TV Soundtrack, - a tv programme I watch with enthuasism) and also, Wham's "Careless Whisper", although both heard, is a must to my collection.

To chose my top 3 Seether songs:

1) Broken (with) Amy Lee
2) Gasoline
3) 69 Tea

Careless Whisper
No Shelter

born between the stars
of cancer and virgo
her gentle advice
kisses my tears away
her compassion
for the ones
she truly loves
yet
individually unique
her whispers soothe me
washes my being
as she guides me
back to the light
the light of love, trust and hope
she holds my bruised heart
she strengthens me;
and for everything
that i have and am
is all for love
return

who the fuck are you to assume anything about me,
when you don't even ask me,
or let alone speak to me?
you judge me by your own actions
but you are a hypocrite
which just insults me further
my desire deepens to disassociate myself from you,
my skin crawls with the sheer thought and distaste
hope your god is sympathetic
about your ignorance
i spit nails at you
wishing you pain and maimed agony
avenged discomfort
is the only thing
i wish for you
my thoughts ponder with no regrets
as the darkness
begins to steal your soul
day by day
piece by piece
riddling you with disease
burning and scarring you
brittle yet slow death
taunts you
reminding you
of your claimed self-righteousness
do you believe you are
so close to god
that you are god?
losing sight
making your own opinions
society standards
who the fuck do you think you are?
you are part
of 6,6 billion people
of the universe
within another universe
you are fucking insignificant

misled in my days

clouded by my own mistrust

where do i go from here?

weak from emotional starvation

lacking mental stimulation

soulless

wandering aimlessly

falling overcomes walking

gray all around

no colors

no shapes

the ground as soft as feathers

i lie down to rest

my eyes close

no desire to wake

going home

i lie in my place

the sand blankets me

the wind hums my lullaby

my lost concept

my identity misplaced

the earth will bear me again

another time

another place

Sinister Void

January 21^st, 2009

Death in blood

Ice in veins

I breathe you in

You breathe me out

Delusional truths

Cancer stolen gasps

Tampered sincerity

Constricted veins

Sleep elusive

As the night is dark

Death in my blood

Ice in my veins

Heroin consuming

From the inside out

Vengeful apathy

Stumbles forward

Stagnated, unfinished,

Burdened thoughts

Collapse the consciousness

Sinister void

Vastness

Nothing

September 10^th, 2008

inbetweener

tears involuntarily fall

drifting onto the page

smouldering these inked words

shuddering heart

locked inside

caged by bone

yearning release

eyes seeking above

the horizon

the clarity of

tranquil color

maples

pass their secrets

in the wind

hush-hush

body immobile

mind detached

from the concept of society

and its conformities

locked in a world

with no pace

eternity as a moment

here i will wait

each moment

for you (to find me)

~xxx~

August 8th, 2008

Muzzled

I lay my head back down
To rest
Alongside the murmur
Of Earth's heart
A sturdy, rectangular frame
Surrounds my body
With sheer gentleness
And warmth
Mother Earth rocks and coo's
Me to sleep

My eyes flutter
My body soft
My mind surrenders
To the Unknown

~xxx~

July 31^st, 2008

over and over

 “one tablet taken at bed”

“take two every four hours. do not exceed”

sound of a dripping tap

merely empty bottles now

my mind groggy

my eyes barely open

all rushes back to me

the steel blade slides across

separating tissue

i watch the water run red

how many times

must my mind see this

AM I REAL?

how many times must i stab my chest

to hear my heart scream

how many times

must my soul dissipate

only to be then put

back in a box

to reform

amnesia

pain

remembering

how many times must i stab my heart

to hear it scream

~xxx~

July 26^th, 2008

Relapse

fuck her

five hundred and two days today

today, my soul crashes

as my mind is torturously reminded

of how you stripped me of everything

i once had

my mind and soul depleted

of everything i believed and knew

over and over

until nothing

i am nothing

you left nothing

the predator you are

the innocents you take

i am not your first

nor your last

the games you play

for your own means

of justification

your perceptions warped

by your selfish desires

the day will come

when you fall

from your self-proclaimed pedestal

yet i am burdened

by your embedded fingernails

as i hear your heartbeat

like a seashell’s sea against my ear

still weighted down

by the scare-tissue

of my mind and soul

as it rubs against my being

but my heart

remains in that vault

you taught me to have

five hundred and two days today

~xxx~

July 16^th, 2008

14.6 minutes

Blood hastily absorbing every molecule of it; hungrily

Energized by iota of the substance, my senses heightened

Neurons dance in appreciation

Zeus acknowledges me; I take his place – god of all gods

Oblique reality, temporarily and a relieving distraction

Yearning ceases; I have everything; I am everything, I have ever wanted

Limitations fall away; my being is omnipresent

Mind, body and soul enwrapped in the vortex

Exhilaration unexplainable, skin aware of its environment

Thriving; all within me; alive

Harmonious-

Yonder

Lying in fields of gleeful bliss

(- SNAP - C17H21NO4 - SNAP -)

Expelled suddenly; shunned from my oblique reality

Cries within me, grind my ears, nails on a chalkboard, panic, anxious, paranoia, lost

Going downward, sliding, falling, my legs numb, stiff, immobilized

Obscurity

Noticing Mephistopheles, I am thrown to my knees in front of him; trapped within my mind

Intense weight, pushing me down; little air; my mind takes me

Nowhere within sight, I scream for Death, my salvation

Entrapped by my own demise, Death is and will be the forever-seeking luxury

~xxx~

April 04, 2008

We Meet Again, Be-un-loved

Once again, you attempted to dislodge your betrayal

My body whipped back and forth

But there I stood

I would not fall

And bleed

I would have avenged my hearts displacement

I would have marred you with distain

I would have watched your veins dry and discolor

I would have taken your strength

And would have waited for the Earth to take you

But

Instead I turned away in forgiveness

Your impression of our friendship gave you life

It put blood back in your veins

I gave you your life back

Having walked this path before

I already know the score

I already know the method

I already know your weaknesses

I already know my strengths

But encouraged by potential surprises

Today is different

I will not wait for Truth to take you

You claim what is mine as yours

Your audacity temporarily shook me

But sight of your Lies continually ground me

And I take back what is mine

Today

I touch your eyes

Your insight becomes void

And your perception is only visual

I touch your skin

Your body decays from the inside out

You drown in your own diseased blood

I touch your mind

Your mental esteem comes crashing down

The screams in your head eat at your skull

Today

I invoke all your fears

They surround your body

Taunting you

Grazing passed your skin

Mocking you

Today

I let them take you

I watch your struggle without remorse

But revenge

Anger towards you, strikingly

Angered by my own naivety

And my own hastily forgiveness

This time, with intention and motivation

I watch you die

I have no other place to be

Day by day

I watch your last struggle without remorse

~xxx~